I cannot control my thoughts.

I really dunno wad i am thinking nowadays....couldn't sleep, couldn't eat properly. I am that kind of person who dun like noisy places, especially a crowded one. But when I manage to find a peaceful moment, my thoughts run wild. Thinking how I am gonna cheat the PM lee on 17/7/2005, thinking how I am gonna suffer after "take over week". I am going crazy. This depression thingy just happens at night, never in the day... Am i realy nuts? Am I really too sensitive? Thinking too much le? I have no idea a all...one day, i might able to overcome it or might be swallowed whole by it....i have no idea..maybe born without a brain might be not bad at all....