Darn Week

I dunno la..have been surviving on kaya buns and ren bean buns this week which is darn pathetic. Let's just get this straight..I am freaking broke. Students not having lesson so not receiving any cash la. Feel darn weird to suddenly ask money from my mum and free loading from my sis. So not my style. Quarrels abt finance again..can say is frequent for this week. Very frustrating for my mum to be two sided. First when I teach tuition she keep s asking to quit it to concentrate on studies. Now that I have not taught for two weeks and have no cash, she keep stressing how much money she has to spent on electrical and medical bills...come on la.. I have been paying my own school fees, transport fees, pocket money, books and other shit. She made it seemed that I have not done a shit. Calling me a beast which is cold blooded and does not understand her problems. Darn it!!! Is like living on my own..honestly I dunno wad is love..in fact I have not felt it before. Was very embarrased when my students were making Mother's Day card (paiseh..that is donkey days ago) and asked me to edit their grammar. WTH la..the sentences are all from their heart. Even if the english is that bad it is still fluent. I cannot even bring myself to say those sentences they wrote. I just dun feel belonged to the family. Everyone is minding their own business..worse off than living in a hostel. I am looking forward to living alone in a cozy apartment with two dogs named "PEEKA" and "BOO".....ya, just me and my dogs. I am nobody's gerl..too ugly, too tom boyish, too stupid to be..