First time that playing bball makes me depressed

Today, my classmate brought his gf along to play bball and she does not know how to play so teach her la. The girlish laughter,the attempts to shoot, the uneasiness she has cos she did not wear any shorts beneath, makes me feel like an orge. Then when playing game, I cannot snatch her ball. Why so? Cos if i were to snatch will make me looK like rogue. As the game went on, when I shot some hoops, she says "joey is so cool la..can shoot so well". She turns to my classmate(her bf) to say "i think i dun like you liao..i like her better" Something within me snapped. SHe makes me feel that I am not a proper gerl. Is not beocs of wad she says. Is like comparing me and her as a gerl, she seemed to behave more properly than i do. She makes me feel like monster. Could not fit myself properly into the gender division. I AM A GERL? WHY DO I DUN FEEL NOR BEHAVE LIKE ONE? WAD IS WRONG WITH ME? True that everyone is unique..I am one who is totally offcourse...

Oh crap, went home to pang sai, bath and sleep for 1.5 hours . Went online to talk rubbish and emo-ing again. Rush through the squash design..geez..it looked bad..

The front...see the distorted human up there?

The back..the word really a bit "squashed"