Blessed..unblessed..

Cruising through fb is proven to be a taboo for me. pple uploading photos of outing with friends, their relationships make me sour... makes me feel ugly. Someone mentioned that some people are just blessed for now and it isn't my time. I have lived for two bloody decades so when the hell is this so call "blessed moment" going to come? Damn, I am tired of being alone. I have issues. I dunno how to deal with them. Dunno what to wear for my sec sch gathering. have not seen them for like 4 yrs? Freaking out. Bloody hell freaking out. I shall not use the F word anymore. Fuck it. Ooops, i just did.