Broken...does anyone understands how I feel?

Everybody's screaming

I try to make a sound but no one hears me

I'm slipping off the edge

I'm hanging by a thread

I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered

And I can't explain what happened

And I can't erase the things that I've done

No I can't

So far so good

Sianz… I am always starting with, “wah…long time never blog le…” basically, there is nothing much lately except the fact that end of year exams just past. Flung my a maths as usual and I have not told my mum yet. Don’t dare to actually. This exam seemed to ring some kind of bell somehow. Mugging is not that effective. Though I have studied all my facts well, lack of practice totally pull down the results. Like before,I had not tried my best. 5 A1s…ha! Bullshit…I might as well dream about. I cannot say that I cannot do it but it seemed so far away. Hui Wen always makes things so easy. Bet that the freak who scored 90 something marks is her. Got another one score 90 something…haizz…surely her again. I almost wail when miss lau went through the a maths paper. So many wrong. Totally shut off throughout the lesson and chemistry also. Somewhat realived to hear that I did not flung my chemistry.
Think my nerves cock up again. Feeling damn hell depressed. Over what I do not know… I have been waking at three frequently and each time I fall asleep, stupid dreams of people I do not think much of popped out from nowhere. Kinda freaky sometimes. Seemed that, I do not get the feeling that I have even slept at all. Just like sleep walking. Have been giving myself time alone nowadays. Watching three movies alone and writing calligraphy which is one of the last thing I would wanna do. I hardly mixed as I had this feeling that I am always the odd one out. People seemed to have no troubles at all and I am just following blindly where they go. Clueless of my classmates is talking about. Like JJ, and whatsoever Chinese pop tars, not my type. For me is like josh groban, techno kind of music.
People always tell me to mix but how the hell am I gonna to do that. I tried to add in the conversation but ended up wif leng3 chang3. Their jokes seemed funny to them but I do not think so. My jokes dun seemed amusing to them. Every time is leng3 chang3 and leng3 chang3 all the way. Heck, like I gonna force myself to open up my mouth.

Something that I have written

應當稱謝耶和華 因他本為善 他的慈愛永遠長存
歷 代 志 上十六章三十四節

Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good; his love endures forever
CHRONICLES 16:34