Geez...bad day..bad day

Haizzz...today bad day ar!!! Hee, I did not workout today, instead I was watching Kannazuki no Miko. The ending very sad ar...ended up best friends had to kill each other. Today not going for squash, nay, not I getting lazy, is mum's orders...tmr got calligraphy competition. Wad to do?
Today got econs test and I sort of prepared for it...mmm. I was busy cloning econs b4 the test and had not revised through yet. Anyhow la..the scary part is that I just realised that today got biology make up lesson. Need to do enzymes TYS and I did not brign the book nor I have even molest it. So chiong to canteen to photocopy. Photocopier suddenly make fun of me and printed out crap. Haizz, can actually feel it was mocking at me. Geez, so cloned bio lor...ahyo, bio prac also have not memorised. Darn it, I read it dunno how many times, squeezed everything into my brain the previous night but everything poofed again.There goes my efforts. Aren't I am at the same level with those who did not studied? Man, I just feel darn dumb..haizz..
Chem tutorial wasn't that bad as I was laughing like hell with JiaQi cos we were like two dumbos trying to draw the dot cross diagram of sulphur dioxide. Ahyo, suppose to be elementary lei. After many attempts and laughing at each other for being stupid, we only to found that we were right all the while only that we counted the wrong number of lone pair...dumb right? Haizz...
My first break in the canteen at 1400 to 1500..lol..cos I am always at the squash court..the whole class was chionging to memorise prac but dropped it when we heard that we could refer...diaoz...we are a bunch of slackers..lol..here comes the funny part.
Mrs Ng was trying her very best to teach me respiration but I kept saying the wrong things. She was trying to be angry la. So she took her red pen to scribble on my hand but did not work. Took out her marker but too did not work. Took out her permanent marker but too did not work. Lol, I was grinning. Hoorays to hairy hands!!! Lol..so she took out a whiteboard marker..it worked. She drew smth but I could not register what it is. I heard kelvin said," tortoise" Ahyo, darn it I am getting slow...it looked cool though. During practical mrs ng told me i could wash it away. "Nay, it looked quite nice" She was really amused.."AHYO, joey ah..just now scold you until like that still like it ar..tsk,tsk.." Mmm, maybe is just me who dun think things like things is shameful ma...maybe I have low maturity..
After bio went to find Miss choong to get my phone. Haizz, talking to her was an agony. I was abt to strangle her just to get back my phone. Agonising weekend I had gone through and then an agonising conversation with this teacher who knows exactly how to grind me. Breathe in...anger control..lucky my counsellor taught me that..
FINALLY!! GOT MY PHONE BACK!!! Haizz, a lot of missed calls ar...lots of sms also..talk to andrew in the canteen b4 I rushed home...geez, caliigraphy again...
My ex schoolmtae kindly made a webby for me...most of it is true...haizz...I suck...www.shuzhen.youarelame.com

Quarrel! Quarrel! Quarrel SOMEMORE!!! DARN IT!

吵架了过后，
结果是爱是恨或者是什么，
界线再也不清楚了
亲情更不用说了，

从孩子的观点让我明白地说，
无论你是我的母亲或是长辈，
不止白白惹人讨厌让人嫌你罗嗦，
恨不得没跟你认识过。
你讲也讲不听听又听不懂，
懂也不会做你做又做不好，
你现在无论说些什么我也不想听。

面对陌生疑惑肯定困难的生活，
过去的日子仿佛偷偷地在笑我，
笑我的无能也笑我白痴，
离开你是傻是对是错是残忍是刻薄。
不知情的认可说我没人性，
但我再也受不了了。

吵架了过后，你以为我们之间还会有什么？
什么都不是！！！走开！！

Had a heated quarrel again, conflict of interests, miscommunication...kinda sick of it. Ha, talk crap...quarreling makes us bonded. MY ASS!! Only know how to push the blame..damn it! Can't listen is it? LISTEN TO THIS! I DUN CARE YOU ARE MY ELDER OR WHATEVER SHIT! GO SPEND YOUR OWN BIRTHDAY YOURSELF!! YOU WANNA GRUMBLE, DO THINGS YOUR OWN FREAKING WAY! DUN POKE INTO MY MATTERS IF YOU ONLY KNOW HOW TO HURL SARCASTIC REMARKS!!! AND STOP CALLING ME ONE WHO IS COLD BLOODED!! YOU ARE THE ONE WITH THE MERCILESS TONGUE!!

Nanyang 30th Carnival, I wasn't doing much

Is carnival right? Must be enjoyable right? Ironically, I wasn't enjoying myself. Nay, not the school's fault, more is my fault. Having to have my phone confiscated unabled me to contact anyone (bad day)so I hardly find anyone I know to accompany to walk around except jue kai and lee min. By the time I saw my classmates, I was very depressed so only mangae to say a meek "HI", steal a gui4 from tammy before I trudged off. Seeing family bringing their kids along, couples walking round the place and friends in group laughing brought my mood down a further notch. I was sick of seeing these things. Holy shit, my family was even messier than before the the divorce. At least we were working together to get out of my dad's nonsense.

I am used to being alone ever since primary school. Aren't I am suppose to enjoy myself being alone? Aren't I used to that? NO! I am being stupid again. I relied to much on others' company. I could feel the familiar bitterness of being lonely before I divorced part of myself away. Somehow I got hurt again after I patched myself up. WHat's the point? I was really feeling sick so I went backstage to rest. Instead I cried myself to sleep. Felt a lot better. Hate to admit it but crying helps.

The minister finally came. The choir members were preparing their entrance from the backstage. Seeing nicholyn makes me fekt even better. I crapped with her and get to know some of her fellow members though I might not be able to recognise them on monday. Paiseh la, Short term memory ma. I was too engrossed with the cake that I forgot my cue. Made one of the teachers quite mad but who cares? As long as the minister got what he was suppose to get, no harm waiting for a short girl for a 2 minutes. Ha, he remarked that he just went to my sec sch on wed for the opening of the sky garden. Man, I totally forgot all abt it.

After this, I went somerset with jue kai and lee min. Longbang Xiang Xiang's taxi (eh, I dunno his name, lee min told me is xiang xiang then so be it since he also amuses himself to call my chinese name which I hate it). we walked from PS to somerset. God knew how I amused the two of them that I only knew tonight we actually walked past the place where the president work. I was saying, "whoa, no wonder la..always got police..mmmm..there are 4 of them, 3 of us. We rampage in wan or not." Lee Min was like the sianz look, " You run in also no use. Nothing inside.." True la but quite amusing wad..3 college students running amok in such important place..

Go John Little buy stuff liao then we go Heeren to see see for my court shoes..geez, I cannot afford those I like and I also afford to play squash barefoot ba. Sianz, I was thinking of accompanying them to Eunos but I realised I had a lot of shit haven't do so went back...Haizzz, lousy day

Geeezzzz..LAUGH!!! DARN POOPED!!!

Surprisingly, I did not doze off during lessons today...ok, for 10 minutes..today the main subject taught was maths...mmm, 6 hours in all. My throat is getting sore from all the laughing, talking and eating snacks to keep myself awake. Dun ask me why but I can teach half way and fall alseep with my brain still processing wad to say after that..

Funny thing of the day, I was talking abt the Snell's Law (oops, forgot the spelling). My student did not catch wad I say..so he asked "huh? Snell's ball?" Everyone was laughing like hell so no one answered him. So he asked again " Wad thing? Rice ball?" Everyone laughed even harder only another fellow choked out "Football la..." Lol, I was laughing like hell..so spent a lot of time recovering myself...

Got paid!!! So went to buy my deodorant AT LAST AR!!! Bought chao guay tioa and hokkin mee...anyhow la..each half half..bought soya bean milk and cake for tmr de breakfast...haizz...watched the second last ending of bai se ju ta..sad ar...why life always got such unfair things like daughter passing away on one's birthday?

Mind boggling

Group PHOTO!!!
Cheeky bunch
Yap Huat and Me

Kai Ting was trying to make me to smile in front of the camera..TOO CLOSE!!



I TELL YOU AR!!! I CAN PRACTICALLY RUN OUT OF THE LECTURE THEATRE SCREAMING AND RUN ROUND THE TRACKS, STILL SCREAMING!!!! Crap, is like as if I am learning third language..geez, german is so much better. I cannot understand the lecturer was talking abt..wad dihydroxyacestone? Geez..i catch no ball..had to control myself from running out of the LT, pulling my hair..darn it, wad I am going through is just the tip of the iceberg..

And one obscene thing i saw today is someone did not zip his pants. Mmm...not gonna say who he is but the whole class tried to hint him plus me yelling,"WATCH YOUR ATTIRE!!!" Haizz..doubt he really caught anything. Then again, we tried our best..very embarrasing to tell him personally.

Went to J8 to eat pastamania..lol gossiped a lot after eating..creamy chicken was AAAALLLLLLLLLRRRIGGGGHHHHTTTT I think..ermmm..not gonna eat it liao..We took pictures and walked around b4 I need to run off to teach tuition..Finally able to drag my ass home at 2030..bought chao guo tiao and haizz, my deodorant ran out of stock..reached home at 2200. Went online and saw the person I liked from far online too.. Ar hahaha...mmmm..oh ya, I wore pink today..spoiled my record..wad is wrong with me?

Oh dear..

Dun ask me why..I am just allergic to my chem teacher.. Cringed when I saw her or hear her voice. Darn it, she just make me uneasy. Nay, she did not do anything nasty to me YET...but seemed that every part of me is rejecting her. Today practical I was willing myself not to jump out of the lab. Heavens know how relieved I was when the bell rang, packed my bag and dashed out. Today, fun ba..somehow like sports fiesta..1 hr of squash, 1 hr of tennis and 1.5 hr of basketball...not do all at one shot la..I am not superwomen. Today, not bad ba..only things that cheers me up is sports and more sports.. Had to get myself occupied if not i very emo de. I also dunno why. Seemed my conditions have not improved much...mmm, just realised canteen talk is not that tough as wad I thought it was. Haha, my classmates told me last night that flaws abt me is that I dun bitch abt others (how to bitch abt others when i cannot even grasp nor understand myself that well), spend more time in the basketball court than in shopping centre (standard ar? gerls must be in shopping centres meh? I rather do push up in the toilet though it is kind of small..) and eh..must be more fem...mmm...lol..geez..someone pass me some make up =X Oh dear, tmr wear pink..

mmm..love exist ba

Mmmm..Jue kai intro me to this webby------>http://universalbuddy.tripod.com/story.htm quite touching..it made me realised I am a very very slow reader. Man, am I that random? Aren't I am suppose to say "Orh..true love exists ba.." Ok la, I believe now..happy? On condition I add in something, true love never has an ending UNLESS you found the person you truely have feelings for..I am looking...searching..geez I am contridicting myself as I mentioned b4 I am not interested in such stuff. Hey, I am just an average gerl with looks below average..so no harm done..(geez..I am talking rubbish again..very random but too bad, is MY style..messy like hell)

Drowning....Lost when surfaced

I've been hurt
Many a time before
My heart bleeds rivers
Deep enough to drown

Thought I to be the one
To swim against the current
Swim against the force
The force that pulls one down

But no matter how hard I try
I can't seem to win this fight
I seem to be further behind

我疯了

我这老妈子就喜欢开玩笑，帮我作facial. 是一边做一边吵架。As usual,像往常一样在MSN与朋友聊天，才发现谁都没有话题来聊，只是傻傻`默默地瞪着荧幕。我对这种感觉太熟悉了，isn't it just another friend that I talked to till there is nothing to talk about? 交朋友是这样的下场吗？算了，looks like I have been sleeping all this whole. Oblivious from where I am standing..people showed me I stand, on the position where I am meant to be alone..BUT me, being thick-skinned keep fighting to get a space where people are suitable to be socialising. So got pushed out and hurting myself, stupid right? Hasn't I experinced it first time in my life during the previous relationship? We talked till we HAD to strain ourseleves to literally squeeze out subjects to talk, to interact. Got more and more distanced, ended up, backed up by the other party's faults, we said "you are not my type" and broke up. PAthetic, darn pathetic...who? ME, myself and I who is the main problem. 站错位置。。。

"Think wat you will I am too indifferent to care" I will remember this sentence that hurts me a lot forever

We Live In Singapura - Mr Brown Show

Written by Edmund Tan. Performed by Hossan.

Cartoon version

Sang Nila, Utama
Saw a lion, alamak
Name the village Singapura, then run very far

Years later, ang mor came
Stamford Raffles was his name
Posed for statues very nice, we kenna colonize

(instru)

Singapura very strong
Big guns all, pointing wrong
Japanese, came on bikes, invade us from our backside

War is over, ang mor back
Singaporeans no respect
Commies come, make a fuss, Singapore independance!

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though it’s kind of crazy
We win other country

David Marshall, Lim Yew Hock
National Anthem starts to rock
Yusof Ishak the big man, guess who’s PM?

Malaysia say, come join me
Two of us be same country
Then not happy, Then make PM cry

PM Lee lead country
Build jurong and HDB
Made the country clean and green, opposition cannot win

JB Jeya no more funds,
Chee Soon Juan won’t eat his buns
Lim How Doong, what a goon, ‘Don’t talk cock’ in parliament

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Kick out from Malaysia Cup
Michael Faye pain in the butt
S-League, Tea Dancing, Ah Bengs love Modern Talking

McDonalds Hello Kitty
Everyone drink Bubble tea
Crushing cockroach Margaret Chan, James Lye is VR Man

(instru)

Reclaimation, Tuas Causeway
Malaysian water buay ho sei
Mahathir’s friend Datuk Anwar, Mathathir says he’s chow Ah Qua

NDP, aunties rush
Everyone it’s fun to flush
Bubble gums are all banned, ask your friends buy from thailand

CHORUS
I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s interesting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Driving car, not funny
Bid on cars with C-O-E
E-R-P, Road Tax, PARF until I want to barf

Why our locals have to pay?
Foreign talent are okay
Housing estate upgrade
by contractors who go pok kai

IMF must follow
Want to protest, go indoors
M-R-T not so fast
Newater they laugh at us

I live in Singapura
It’s not perfect living
But at least it’s in-teresting
I live in Singapura
Though its kind of crazy
We win other country

Baby bonus, maid levy
Singtel Shares give out for free
Jack Neo, Kit Chan, sexy pastor Ho Yeow Sun

Beckham parties with models
Has affair but no one knows
S-league, go world cup, can come true if they don’t suck

Mahathir then Abdullah
Bar top dancing at the bars
Budget airlines start to pa (ie fight) Stop speaking Singlish lah

Gay is okay says PM
SM Lee becomes MM
PM Lee the same name, here we go all over again.

WE LIVE IN SINGAPURA!


Lol..actually seen this at NY's broadcast system..I was quite deaf so could not heard it. But now I cannot stop laughing upon hearing it..nice one ar!!!

GreenTea Commercial

Lol..this commercial very 可爱..wahahaha..nicholyn intro me de..really brighten up my gloomy night..

WHY PEOPLE HAVE KIDS AR??

Why do people have kids?

-Wanting to continue their family name and leave behind a legacy

-After a job, car, marriage and a house, the next step was to have a child.(an extension of the commitment of marriage)

-Children are the celebration of the union of two people in love. I could live with that.

-I want my kids to look at me the way I look at my parents and say " I hope I can be a parent just like them."

-Despite the theory that people have kids because they want and have planned for a family; the truth is that most people have kids because a woman gets pregnant. That is about the only reason.

-They like kids, want something of 'their own', it is someone to love them unconditionally (until they are a teenager), To positive thinking people have children because they like them, or because they want to make the world a better place or because they can't stop themselves from doing a little genetic experimenting with the partner of their choice ("we'll have a girl, and she'll cure cancer and be president, and end world hunger")make more of our species, etc

-To raise a family and have a positive influence on the next generation

-Being a parent is a really special thing

-People want their kids to look after them when they old. (No one wants to be lonely or die alone)

So basically..

PEOPLE WANT KIDS BECAUSE:-.
1. Someone to love and to give love to me.
2. Someone to take care of me when I am older.
3. Someone to try and impress upon my views of life and the world.
4. Someone to keep my culture going.
5. If I have other kids...someone to keep them company when I am gone
6. Someone who will hopefully get my good genes
7. Someone who will remember me fondly.
8. Someone to pass on whatever material wealth I have accumulated.
9. to take on the challenge/responsibility of parenthood.
10. to help another human being in a most profound way (adoption)
11. to be a part of the overall human tradition


Haizzz..this is one of the GP assignments. Quite an interesting topic. Quite fun to go online to find out what are people's views. Some are funny but sort of crude. Lol, facts of life always sound crazy but they are very true..See? Humans are just bunch of crazy animals that use their brains in weird ways..count me in!! Lol..

AH!!! MY MONEY!!! Kidding.. =)

Today as usual, woke up really early to teach tuition. Everything went went I guess except I practically fell asleep while waiting for my student to finish her hw. Oi..really tired ma. Finally got my pay for 4 lessons. Went to the next students house. Was quite angry with one of the student's mum cos it was time for tuition and she said she wanna bring him out. That is according to the student himself. If it is the truth, I am not too sure. Hey, who am I suppose to throw stones at? Is his own loss lor.. Then, mum called in the middle of the lesson. She wanted me to accompany to renew her plan. Haizz, I wan go home to zzz. But nvm..

So I found myself at Toa Payoh central at 6. Man, I think I look shabby. Bermudas, t-shirt and slippers and somemore carrying a whiteboard..geez, show me a worse attire. Trailed behind her to the M1 distributor. Looked around for phones she liked. " Must have radio ar! Oh ya, camera also nice nice one better.." Geez, that leaves out motorola phone. We settled with Nokia 6288. Dunno why, at the cashier, I automatically took out my wallet. "$111" I did not even blink and took out the cash. Whoa!!! POWER OF MONEY AR!!! My mum was grinning from ear to ear. "Dun care ar, this one your birthday gift." I muttered. 1/3 salary gone within minutes..whoa!! very good spending power...break my own record

My sis was yelling into my ear that she wanted one too. Too bad, get one yourself. And oh ya, you get urself mum's birthday gIft. Mine is settled...MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!

Mural painting

Class photo..mmm 我坐的姿势好像不大对。。
Candid Shot..oh dear..I look like mad woman
Nice tatoo


Today no school!! The whole of J1s are involved in the mural painting for the NY's 30th anniversary. Mmmm, I brought along newspapers and a portable radio (ended up we did not use it..haizz..) Haha, we have a fabulous time as we scramble around getting the correct paints. Haha, everyone very eager to paint. It is quite tough for the lower part of the wall as it is glazed. Actually hor, our design considered quite easy le. Th e rest of the murals look darn chim..lol.. we lacked of white paint so me, qi ying and yin cheong went to various blocks to beg for white paint..lol..slacking in progress too..a group of us went to Mac to slack..everyone laughed at everything and I really felt belonged..mmm, nice feeling nia. We went back to NY and I went to another block. 0715 de mural very nice ar!!! Had dinner with jue kai, shi pei, lee min and dunno who la...forgot his name =X Haha...I am vandalised..mum tot my aiming so atrocious that i painted myself instead of the wall.. VERY COLD AR!!!

Black Black Clouds over my head..disppeared after some insanity

Sports carnival was so so la..nothing much lor. I participated in dragon boat and venessa was practically going nuts over it. She in dragon boat ma...geez..I almost forgot I got water phoebia but hell get over and done with la. The main attractiong seemed to be the swing, seesaw..and...WE PLAYED CATCHING. WTH...but fun lei..damn it..like very deprived of childhood. Chiong off when everything ended..went to lot 1 to eat fish soup. Mmm..haizz..I wanted bubble tea but queue very long..

Don't know wad really happened,,just that teach halfway suddenlybecome very moody. If I were to exaggerate, you could see dark clous floating above my head. Heel la, it was pouring like siao also. Mmm..is this call the heavens feel the same way as you feel? Ok..the good part is that my mum called in the middle of lesson. I thought is just another shit call to get me to buy groceries..BUT she said she is going overseas. BOOYEAH!!! Let the hell loose. Called my sis and she was giving that kind of bored tone,"ya ya i know la" Went home still moody la..dunno how to pamper myself. Jue Kai was trying to perk me online using lame jokes that I dun catch. Crap..my sense of humour getting below zero.

The empress dowager not at home of course must seize the chance to create havoc la..my sis and I feeling damn naughty so we went out for Mac. First time in my life to go out so late like 10 la..I know some pple would have said quite early wad..but for me, really damn late to go out. MAC FLURRY!! Haha, dunno when is the last time i ate it. The most I could afford is a sundae. Reached home like around 11 le. Dun me how we nu-a until so late.

Eileen and gang called. Played BBall at 1130. @.@ Tell you ar..really siao nia..on la..mum not at home!! Muahahaha!!! First time again la..play Bball so late. Insane nia. The lighting was really bad at the court so use 6th sense lor..think we made a lot of noise but heck..if we were really considerate peeps we would not have played bball so late in the first place. Ran around the court like crazy people deprived of exercise. Came back home grinning from ear to ear. SHUANG AR!!! WAIT!!! I still have to teach today..sianzz..die liao..sleep during lesson liao