First Year anniversary...brought 4ward from 17/07/2005..

Maybe you will ask me why the anniversary is brought forward. Is because NHSS also having her 88th anniversary that day, on the sunday. So migt as well bring forward the anniversay and somemore is holidays so the time constrain isn't that great too. Ya...so the day starts...

Early in the morning at seven, I half dragged myself out of bed..go toilet la...unfortunately wen t back to sleep again. Lazy pig la. Only woke u with a start at nine. Horror that was...suppose to meet up at ten at TP MRT station..haben do housework some more. Jumped out from bed.of course idy first la. I almost pengz when i saw how messy the living room was. Angry because of the mesy scence that greeted me early in the morning and my sis promised to "swim" or should i say teach me how the hell not to drown like last time at Sentosa. Instead she is sleeping with her friend...ended up i did the housework in an impossible speed. Fixed up breakfast for the two sleepyheads...had no time to make my own. Got a couple of smses from Gary, my senior who graduated 2 yrs ago. "Holidays just sucks like hell" that's wad i replied him..not being rude of course...just a bit agitated...
Wad really ticked me off was my round tummy{ accumilated during the holidays} mde me looked extrmely horrible when i wear my black dress. Forget it then...turned to my black nike sleeveless shirt instead...looked kinda weird but couldn't pinpoint what is wrong. Heck! I AM LATE!! I never late in appointments, meetings, dating, school...etc..except once, I really overslept and ended up reaching school at 0745...my junior doing gate duty had a great laugh and teasing...nvm abt that. Back to the day..so i left my sis doing the emptying the rubbish, sweeping and mopping of the floor. So in the end i wore he darkest coloured jeans i could find and the nike shirt...footwear is a problem...borrowed my sis' brown sllippers...honestly I looked like someone who dunno how to dress properly...no choice..wear the sch u for too long...forgot how to dress..god bles me that there is school uniform..really pathetic in dressing
Met up with my bf...in the MRT...as usual, he was late..need to wait for a train to go b4 his came...we grinned at each other regarding our ressing....talked abt holidays which were to me quite meaningless..reached somerset within 5 minutes, that is the good thing living in TP...haha near Orchard. Got our tickets for Mr and Mrs Smith...three minutes to the starting of the movie..made our own sweet time up...as usual..one long string of advertisements b4 the movie starts....no gonna tok abt the movie...WATCH IT YOURSELF! I am being considerate to those who have not watched it..heh heh....really hilarious..
After the movies, my tummy was makinga racket..both of us were debating where to eat....from cineleisure walked to Takashimaya de basement...walked around...really crowded...so made our way back to cineleisure. Finally, made our decision to eat Suki Sushi. Never in my life had I eaten in a Japanese restaurant...was looking forward to it. The green tea came first...quieten down my stomach a bit..next came the salmon...honestly my stomach starting to have a revolting effect when i took the second bite. Got quite a headache...cos of the conveyer belt...keeps moving...quite distracting...finally got the food...BABY OCTOPUS?! I was like chewing this unknown thingy at first...cold and weird taste...was not in my "taste dictionary"...was shocked when i was told...tell ya my stomach wasn't happy after my "taste ordeal". Never will i wanna taste any Jap food le.. went home after that to rest....long day...haiz...

WAIT! Before I go,I would like to thank SUKI SUSHI (despite the not so ok experience), EZone of Orchard, Cineleiure and the SMRT....lame la...no choice...my character. WEI! I am forgetting someone...POOI CK!!! Thanks for everything..you are really sweet..but not as sweet as chocolate..heh heh....BIG HUGZ! Jia you for your exams, tests and wadever things you have in future...oh ya...ya A levels!!

I cannot control my thoughts.

I really dunno wad i am thinking nowadays....couldn't sleep, couldn't eat properly. I am that kind of person who dun like noisy places, especially a crowded one. But when I manage to find a peaceful moment, my thoughts run wild. Thinking how I am gonna cheat the PM lee on 17/7/2005, thinking how I am gonna suffer after "take over week". I am going crazy. This depression thingy just happens at night, never in the day... Am i realy nuts? Am I really too sensitive? Thinking too much le? I have no idea a all...one day, i might able to overcome it or might be swallowed whole by it....i have no idea..maybe born without a brain might be not bad at all....

Reflections for the first half of the year

Second week of holidays are gone. What did I achieve during the holidays so far? Say, I can say that it is nothing much. I spent most of my time in school for the first two weeks, not forgetting longs hours of netball too. I am planning to finish every single piece of homework by next Tuesday. It is pretty obvious that the TV nowadays is getting attractive. Haha! The solution is to get my dear to my house to divert the attention, force me to do homework ba. I only realized that our first year anniversary is exactly the same day on NHSS de 88th anniversary dinner. Haha! I guessed we really owe it to Nan Hua for knowing each other.
Regarding school for the first half of the upper secondary school life, I suppose is not too bad, only thing is the extra homework. My character isn’t that optimistic compared to last year. Don’t ask. I also dunno why. Of course, council protem. The results are out. I did not get in. I am lying if I say I am not disappointed. I just feel down because it is just like the protem I had in primary school. I did not get it that time. Still young and immature that time, I cried for like three days, refusing to wear the prefect tie. This seemed that history has repeated itself. Takes time for the scar to heal ba.

I really have no idea wad the hell i am doing.

I really had weird feeling regarding my rehearsal for the 88th anniversary performance. It is so fake...heh, no offence, seriously. I just feel like an idiot up there and my members agreed. is like other performing arts CCAs actually PERFORMED up there, unlike my group is to fake. Heh, sounds crude but true. I just cannot find a better word to say but all I could say is I feel idiotic and fake. Tell ya wad we guys from calligraphy got to do. We go up there take a bow and go to the tables and "write". The paper is prepared and the word each of us i supposed to write is already written beforehand (by me, i wished i haden). Then when the cue is given, we are suppose to saw the words, take a bow again and get lost. Everything just last only for like five to eight minutes at most. I believe every performance oranything I do, there is always the sense of sactisfaction. But hey, though everything is gonna run smoothly that night, i dun feel great. One of my members actually told me that she rather has stage fright that night and srew up everything rather than going up there and fake. But the teacher in charge says stick to the plan then so be it. the coach of the dance keep arging us to smile but none of us could. WHERE IS THE PRIDE, JOY AND HONOUR WE SUPPOSE TO HAVE? Obiously, each of the thingy we should have is indirectly confiscated from us....none of us feel good abt this man....